Since starting Refashioned Art this past summer, this has been one of the most exhilarating and expanding times of my life- but also one of the most terrifying. No surprise really. I am finally pursuing something I’ve always wanted to do deep inside, but was too afraid to even admit that to myself. It was like my little secret.
Why is that!? Sometimes the closer we get to that thing we really want most, the scarier it gets, and therefore we somehow find a way to either deny it, ignore it, or subconsciously push it away.
REINVENTION | PATIENCE | BELIEF
These things can be challenging but life has proven that all are possible. And when I speak of belief I am specifically referring to a belief in oneself and in miracles. Yes, I believe in miracles- everything from the big to the small little hints of magic that happen on a daily basis; the little winks from the Universe, synchronicities.
These words are my words of 2020. They are also like reminders to myself because these things can be challenging for me, but life has proven that they are possible. The thing that helps me the most is looking for evidence- in other people and situations. Again, it’s like focusing on what we do want to happen, instead of fixating on the alternative.
Coming off a year of steep ups and downs, I am proud of the fact that I have no regrets. The things that didn’t go well (to put it lightly) were completely out of my control. I did the best I could and now I’m moving on.
It was excruciating at times, but in difficult situations I have finally learned to choose what is best for me, and to put myself first. YES. It has been very difficult to do, but also an unlearning of being a people pleaser, which is extremely unhealthy and draining.
It is true- if I’m not solid, secure and happy- I can’t help anyone else do or be the same. Do you agree?
I’ll be sharing some of the highlights of 2019 as I usually do. I always like to do a year in review, an assessment of what I accomplished, where I’ve been, what could I have done better. But this year, most of those details will be staying in my journal.
Thanks for all the support as I rebuild and reinvent yet another facet of myself! The story goes on, the plot continues to unfold...life goes on!
And apparently, the shots above are the most enjoyed photos I’ve shared thus far on my ReFashioned Art Instagram feed. Looks like I’ll be sharing more selfies & photoshoots in 2020. (wink)
Cover Photo by Gene Watson, Clothing from Goodwill, Styled by Moi.